Sunday, February 14, 2010


A LONG TITLE on SEVERAL TOPICS that I needed to get in ONE POST. I think that just might be a run on sentence. First off, if you missed this post and this post , they did not stay up long, you might want to read them. I never post daily, but wanted to write about my Mom today.

Today would have been her birthday. She died 2 years ago. I would love to do an entire post on her, but as strange as it sounds, I don't feel like I really knew her until after her death. She and my Dad had been married almost 60 years and died 3 months apart. It was a hard season in my life to say the least. My Mom did not live a happy life. Her journals are a vivid portrait of her life. I will just leave it at that. But what a treasure she left us. She journaled everyday for at least 30 years and I have most of those journals. Some are heart breaking, some are hurtful but they are all brutally honest. I never felt like my Mom liked me...loved me yes, but liked me, NO. I found treasures in those journals that told me different. And strangely enough those that I thought she loved so much, she had real issues with. I have read the journals over and over. Her words were beautiful and her love for her grandchildren was so evident. When she could not say it, she could write it. She would have LOVED BLOGGING. She loved to write and this would have been a great way for her to make friends. Maybe that's the reason I finally made the JUMP into the BLOG WORLD. I want my kids to have our lives documented in written word...I want them to know how much I love them. So today, I say thanks Mom for leaving me your words. In many ways, they healed my heart.

By the time I post this it will be Valentines Day. I have been the queen to a man for 37 years and not a day goes by that he does not express that. I know that is not the norm, but how I thank God for giving me a man that knows how to express love. Jack Powell, you are one in a million!

This is the week that my ONE YEAR BLOG ANNIVERSARY BEGINS. Last week I ordered some Beth Moore CD's and one of them is
INSIGHTS ON MARRIAGE, a great talk she gave recently at Focus on the Family. I listened to the CD last night and it is one of my favorites. So that is my first giveaway of the week. All you have to do is make a comment on this post..That's it. I will draw Monday night. I want to put lots of gifts in the mail next week and bless many of my new friends. You have made this year so much richer.

We had a REAL SNOW WEEK here, so I had two little boys spending lots of time with me....Enjoy a few pictures of my HEART!



Anonymous said...

Happy 1 yr blogaversary!

Those boys are just super cute!!

Love Being A Nonny said...

Why was Jack telling on you?? That is too funny!!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Love Being A Nonny said...

....oh, and your mom WOULD have loved blogging. What a precious thing she left for you. Just leaving her journal shows how much you were loved. It sounds like it has been healing for you. What a precious gift!

Unknown said...

Have a great week.. and Happy One Year Anniversary!

Amy, a redeemed sheep said...

My mom died 3 years ago. It's hard losing your momma, isn't it? What a rich blessing to have your momma's journals! I can't even imagine how much they mean to you. To really get to know her in such a deep and profound way.

Have a wonderful Sunday singing praises to our God...

Kaypt said...

I always enjoy your posts and today was very special. My mom wanted to write her story but was more like me, want to but not a lot of carry through. I'm trying to do those "Grandma" books for my grandsons but I'm not great at that either. Keep inspiring me.

Bacardi Mama said...

I'm so glad your mom's journals brought you some peace. Congratulations on your queenship. I love to hear when people are that much in love. I would love to win your first giveaway. It sounds like a wonderful cd. Happy Valentines Day and a very Happy Blogaversary!!

Becky said...

Hey girl.....Congratulations on your Blog Anniversary!!! I've been such a bad blogger lately, I'm trying to get my act together!

I'm glad you have your mom's journals and I'm sure her words have reassured the way she feels about you and I'm sure that is a comfort for your deep, down hurt.

Gosh, I've been gone too long....can't believe how much the boys have grown.

Andrea said...

Beautiful post. I hope/pray I am leaving a legacy for my children and grandchildren by writing/blogging.

Blessings and hugs,

Jo Whitehurst said...

Sweet T, Happy V-day (My sweetie and I have been together for 33 years), Happy 1st Anniversary, and thank you for sharing a glimpse into your past, and the photos of where your heart is today!!! Whatever spurred you to blog, those of us who read your posts are grateful. Thank you and have a blessed day!

Nina Diane said...

very amazing story about your mom's jounals. I am glad that they were able to help you heal your heart. Happy everything to you today :)

Sugar Bear said...

Wow, my firt time stopping by and what a powerful first post to read. I'm sorry about your loss. From the sounds of it, you are growing from it..and that's a wonderful thing.

Happy Blog-iversary! Congrats!

And ...happy hearts day to you too!

Lynne (lynnesgiftsfromtheheart) said...

Congrats!!! Happy 1year Blogaversary!! Always a milestone. Your post was so moving about your mother and your dear sweet hubby! Your grandchildren are adorable. Everyone knows how I adore my Bailey, he truly makes my heart sing. Happy Valentines Day!
hugs ~lynne~

Anonymous said...

Hi Teresa. I'm glad your Mother's journals gave you some peace. Bless your heart.
Congratulations on your Bloggaversary and those little grands are so precious!
Happy Valentine's Day, Dear One.
Be a sweetie,

southerninspiration said...

yes,Happy 1year Blogaversary!!!!
Your little fellas are adorable!
Interesting story about your mom...I wish my mom had journaled!


SusanD said...

But you didn't say why Jack was tattling on you. lol. So glad you've made it a year in blog land and thru blogging we've become blog friends. Blessings, SusanD

Lindsey said...

My grandmother said she used to think the same way about the way her mother treated her. I cannot imagine. But..those journals! They really are treasures!

Lesli said...

That is so nice that you have those journals so that you had the opportunity to really know your you said, some people just communicate through writing! I hope you had a happy V-day! I also just left a comment on your last post.. I just had my blog makeover and I LOVE IT!!

Emily said...

Ohhh I think the picture of the two all cuddled up is so perfect. That is how it should always be! Too cute

the Spocks said...

I love the picture of your grandson telling on you.

Channa, Oh its the Coachs Wife said...

I would love that CD! How awesome!!

Nezzy (Cow Patty Surprise) said...

Oh, Grandma...what did ya'll do that warranted a tattle call from Jack? Heeeheehe!!!

Happy Blogaversary to you sweet lady. I have certainly enjoyed reading your post this year.

What a lovely tribute to the love of your life for 37 years. We just celebrated our 37th last month.

You have a treasure in more ways than one in your Mama's journal. I'm very happy that your found the love in it.

You have a wonderfully blessed week!!! :o)

Courtney said...

Happy 1 Year Blogaversary! I would love to know why Jack is calling his mommy to tattle on Grandma!

aguhmom said...

Dear Friend - I would love to win
those awesome cd's from our Siesta Mama. You do give good stuff.
Keep your snow, i am plenty cold enough here in H-town.
Love to you, patti

aguhmom said...

Not sure if my entry got posted -
if its a double - do I get entered twice?? smile

Congratulations on your blog annie.
Not surprised - you always wrote the best and prettiest stickered
letters. What a gift it was to see your letters in my mail box.
I hope my name gets chosen for
that cd set from Siesta Mama -
never to old to learn how to be
a better married girl. or to share
with my chilwrens how to be a blessing to God and their mate.
I love you to the moon and back,

Heart2Heart said...


First of all congratulations on your blogging anniversary and I would love for you to put my name in to enter the giveaway for the Beth Moore CD! She is amazing!

I too, like your mom, journal and have found so much comfort for me, in going back and reading ones from almost 9 years ago. It shows me just how I handle struggles and issues back then and how much I've changed even now. I can only imagine how much you will treasure these. You are right, your mom would have loved blogging.

For me it's my new outlet instead of the old pen and paper and I can write so much more. I have managed to even get my girls interested in starting their own journals when they looked at mine.

Please make sure to stop by my blog today to enter a great giveaway as well.

Love and Hugs ~ Kat

LisaShaw said...

Congratulations on your one year anniversary.

Love the photos...cute cute cute!

Thank you for sharing your Mother with us. I can relate to some of what you said. While my Mother is still living she has not lived a happy life and mainly it's because of the absence of JESUS and the presence of "religion". There's a difference. Sadly she has not had a real relationship with her children or grand children which is very sad. I am a mother and a grandmother and wouldn't trade one moment for the blessings each one of them are to my life.

I'm sure glad that within the painful journals you can still see your Mother's love for you.


Gigi said...

I became a grandmother for the very first time on February 7th to a beautiful little girl. I have three sons so this is an extra special treat for me. I love my boys with all of my heart and wouldn't trade them for anything but am so looking forward to spending time with my granddaughter. We went to visit them over the weekend and even though my body is here at heart is back there in Maumelle with her!

Cathy~Mille Fleur said...

Your darling babies make me smile every time I see their sweet faces!

Happy Valentine's Day and Happy Anniversary...time flies!


Ashley Fisher :) said...

Just found your blog; it is too cute. I am going to follow! your grandkids are adorable! I wish my mom would blog!!!

Leigh of Tales from Bloggeritaville said...

Sweet Friend,

This post was so poinant. What a treasure from your mother. Although you grew up not close to your mother, I find it as you said a treasure that she left you with her true thoughts, not uncertainty following her death. You are right, I am sure she would've loved blogging.
Speaking of....CONGRATULATIONS to you on your anniversary!!!!!!
Blogging is the best. The people I have coem across have impacted my life, and most I have never actually met. It too is a gift.
Please enter me in your giveaway. I love Beth Moore and I think working on a marriage is likened to's always a work in progress. Like a garden, it needs tending and nurturing, otherwise it is overgrown with weeds.

Thanks for the opportunity. Stop by sometime!
Tales from Bloggeritaville

Carole Burant said...

What a treasure, indeed, your mom's journals are and how wonderful that you have them. I can well imagine how poignant it is to read her journals but as you say, you've learned so many things about her and how she felt through her words. Yes, she would have definitely loved blogging:-)

Leave it to you to have giveaways for US in celebration of your blogiversary...we should be giving YOU gifts for making your blog such a wonderful place to visit:-)

LOVE the pictures of the boys, both so darling. xoxo

Momrempel said...

Happy 1yr Blog Anniversary~

Thanks for stopping by my blog, I an so happy you did! You have a great blog:) I will be stopping by here much for often! God bless:)

Personalized Sketches and Sentiments said...

Happy Blogaversary...blogiversary...blogoversary...aW any way you spell it...A Happy one to you!

How wonderful to have 30 + yrs of journals from your mom! I would have loved to have something like that (my mom passed away almost 6 yrs ago and I do so miss her!) How awesome if there was such a thing as blogging back then! So many answers may have been given to some family questions that I have.

I love the photos, esp of Jack tattling on you :o)

Blessings & Aloha!
(Yay! for a few days off of that I can finally catch up on reading some fav blogs!)

Jenny said...

Happy Blogaversary. And Happy memories of your Mom. I think your thoughts on knowing her better after she passed away apply to many of us. In 2009 I started writing biographies of both my parents. It was amazing how little I actually knew about either of them.