Thursday, August 13, 2009

Blog Hop and the Famous Card Box Giveaway

I missed the Blog Hop earlier this week so thought I would combine the giveaway and the photo hop together. All you have to to do to be entered in this giveaway is write a caption for this (not so good quality) picture.
This is SO 18 month old Jack's personality....Amanda was on the computer last night and looked over on the couch and this what she saw...she snapped this picture with her phone and it is our favorite picture of the month! So give it a Caption in a comment and you will be entered in the "Card Box " giveaway. This one is a 75.00 value! and since I am not sure how to link back to one of my older posts, you will have to go to that post in March...Or if you would like to email me ( and tell me how...then I will learn a new trick today. It has been everyones favorite prize and one of the most popular things I sell for gift baskets. And since I am being honest, many of you have given me blog awards that I appreciate so much, but I am not sure how to copy them and link back to you.
O.K. so now you know I am a tad computer illiterate. The giveaway will go to the person that comes up with the cutest caption. I will annouce a winner Monday morning, so you can enter as many times as you want. You can probably tell, but in case you cannot, he is watching TV. We are keeping this little man along with his brother, all weekend, while his Mom and Dad take a much needed anniversary get away.
So many of you have emailed me, asking about are a few snapshots from yesterday...HE is doing great, totally well and so loved. Thank you for your prayers and concern.
A Mom and Dad madly in love with a little boy!

REMEMBER your comment needs to have a caption for the picture of Jack sitting on the couch. This may only be a funny picture to us because we know him. Have a wonderful weekend. I am so thankful for all my new blog friends.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Happy Birthday Daddy

Today is my Dad's Birthday.

I am not sure why I am writing this post and it may be something I take down in a few days. But just maybe someone else will relate, maybe someone else has walked this road.

My Dad died a little over two years ago. My Dad had never spent a night in the hospital until he was 80. My Dad was a very successful business man that was able to retire at 40 and spend the next 40 years following his race horses. He was a very honorable man. Honest and fair were his business trademarks. My Dad was a complicated man. He came from the generation that showing emotion was a sign of weakness. He was very strong in that area. My Dad was always right and always in control. I know lots of facts about him, I just did not really know him. I never heard my Dad pray. I never heard my Dad say "I love you"!
My Dad was diagnosed with cancer on a sad July day a few summers ago and he died a horrible death the following April. He lived 9 months. Nine long months with treatment that was inhumane. He begged me on several occasions to help him die.
My Dad never had a hair out of place (so the picture will show you what cancer did to him). He had no experience with the medical community. He had no idea how to be his own advocate and when I tried to be, he became so angry with me. He was mad at the world.
He totally lost control of his life. And control was the ONE thing that he had for 80 years. Those nine months were some of the hardest of my life. I have never seen a human suffer like he did.
Our relationship was one of the harder things in my life, to put it mildly. I am the oldest of three girls and there is not a doubt in my mind that he liked me least.
I understand that to a degree...I would never let him control me.
But oh how I wanted him to LOVE me, how I wanted his approval. I just plain old wanted him to be proud of me. Occasionally, I would sense that I had made his approval list. I gave him his first grandson and his namesake. I also gave him his only granddaughter. I know he loved them. I have always been a hard worker and I would sense at times that made him proud. He never said it, I just HOPED it. My boy gave the eulogy at his funeral and no boy has ever done a better job. I remember just whispering to myself, "Daddy, I hope that made you proud!" Even as an adult it was a constant longing to know he thought I had worth.
Like I said, it was just complicated at best.
I did see him soften his heart in the last months of his life. I was able to spend nights with him in the hospital near the end, where I really shared my heart with him, but I don't know what people in coma's really hear. I pray that he heard my heart. I pray that he knew that I really did love him. I guess I will always wonder if he really loved me.
Happy Birthday Daddy!

Parker with my Mom and Dad as we celebrated Christmas in a nursing home a few months before he died. He no longer even knew our names.

I don't want to leave this post on a sad note. I married a different kind of man many years ago. Never for one second, have my kids nor have I, not known that their Dad loved us more than life. He is the proudest man I know of his wife and kids and double proud of his grandkids. He shows us and tells us many, many times each day. He is the best.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

The Winner Is....Oops the Winners ARE

You know I cannot just draw one number. Parker was here tonight and he picked 2 numbers for the Blog Hop Giveaway.

THE WINNER OF the Surprise Box!

Kelly @ The Beauty of Sufficient Grace

and the runner-up, who will also get a "surprise" in the mail is

Kat at Heart2Heart

Congratulations to both of you. There will be many giveaways during the holiday season.

Leaving you with a few pictures from the weekend....Have a great week!

Two Brothers That Are Crazy About Each Other

JACK........My Little Man That Makes Me Laugh Everyday

Thinking????? Sweet Grayson Grayson 6 weeks